Paint Therapy

Well I hope everyone had a very happy holiday! We had a great holiday with my husbands family. Santa was very good to us as well :)

Well we started on the future baby's room. We got everything primed on Thursday and got it painted yesterday. Blue on the bottom, yellow on the top. I also ordered the bedding since we based the paint on it i wanted to make sre that it was available. We are not going to buy any furniture or anything but it feels really good to see the room painted. It gives me hope to see the bright cheery colors.

We contacted our agency earlier this week and changed our preference to 100% hispanic. We had 50% previously but about 60% of the adoptions done by our agency are full hispanic so we are hoping this will improve our odds. I am feeling hopeful that we will get a match soon.

I am going to try to post a picture of the bedding so you can see it.

Christmas

Well Christmas is only a few days away. I am trying not to let the holidays get me down and instead I am thinking/hoping about next Christmas. Hopefully by next Christmas we will have the family we have dreamed of. By next Christmas we would have been waiting 15 months so I would like to think we will have been matched and hopefully placed by then. We have been waiting 4 months so far and even though it feels like forever it really has gone by quick. I just have this feeling that our time will be coming soon......maybe it is wishful thinking, but maybe not. It has to be our turn eventually right?

I was taken back to my IVF memories yesterday when a friend of mine called to tell me that her 1st attempt had failed :( She is going to try again in February which is braver then me. Once was all I could take. I know in my heart adoption is what we are meant to do, I just need to stay hopeful/faithful and patient. That is my new years resolution to have more Patience and trust that our child will find us when he/she is ready and no sooner.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday season. We are going to enjoy our last Christmas as a family of two (or at least I hope it is our last as a family as two)

Happy Holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday

Yipee it is Friday! I love friday and this weekend we have dinner plans tonight and tomorrow night at REALLY nice restaurants and the best part is both dinners are free for us! So we will eat like Kings, I am pretty excited about it. Then Sunday DH's family is coming over for a X-mas Cookie party so that should be fun. His family and mine have been SOOO supportive of our adoption and I know they are praying for us everyday.

Ok so i have to vent a little today, does it bother anyone else when your family or friend ask..."So have you heard anything from the adoption agency?" I feel like shouting, "NO, and thanks for reminding me, if i get some news i promise you will hear about it" I know they mean well, and I should be grateful that they care enough to ask.....it is just frustrating.

I am thinking about taking some pictures of our house at the holidays and of our family at our cookie party and at X-mas and adding a page to our profile, i doubt it will help but it can't hurt right? I called the agency and they said just send them the page and the copies and they would put it in for us. So maybe i will do that over the holiday break at least I can feel like i am doing something!!!!

New to this

So this is my first offical blog...not quite sure what to do. I hope maybe this will help me vent my frustrations as DH and I go through this adoption journey. It is truely a journey and much more of an emotional rollercoaster then I expected. I thought the infertility stuff was hard but I had no idea that adoption would be equally hard if not harder considering i don't have to go through anything "physically" but it is all emotional and i feel like it is so much out of my control. I have never wanted something so bad that I truely could no control when I get it.

So we have been waiting just over 3 months. We have not received a single call of any potential matches. I call the agency and they say how busy they have been over the last few weeks and how atypical that is..........which is good i guess, but WHY HASN'T MY PHONE RUNG?