Friday's random thoughts

It is Friday again so here I go!

Izzy's new favorite phrase right now is "No Thank You" it is so sweet and also kinda funny and frustrating! She says this to anything she does not want to do, even if she really has no choice in the matter (ie going inside for dinner) It is so sweet to hear her say it and she really is polite about it, that it makes it hard to stay stearn when you want her to do something she doesn't want to do. Now, when she says "NOOOOOOO" all whiney, like she still does do also, i find it much easier to make her do it. I HATE whining!!!!!!

I have been feeling a little mommy guilt lately. On Tuesday's and Friday's my mom watches Izzy while I work and I take her to my mom's house in teh morning. well the last week or two she has been saying "No Nana, No Nana" and No Thank You when it comes to going there or in the car on teh way there. I know she has fun with Nana once she is there but it doesn't stop me from feeling bad about taking her there. This morning she really didn't want to go and was climbing all over me and whining when i was trying to leave. My mom of course called me 10 min after I left and said Izzy was fine. I know she is but why do i feel so bad?

I realized this week how much I take for granted my feet. I WAY overdid it on Sunday and jogged/walked too far and ended up with tendonitis in my right foot. It is so painful and is till bothering me even today. I totally take for granted walking around on a pain free foot until one of them hurts to walk on. I was really hoping the pain woudl be gone today like my dr/uncle said it would but no, still hurts to walk on....makes working out pretty difficult.

I have been struggling this week to eat well. I saw the scale go up a pound or two earlier in the week and I have been trying to get back to better eating habits but it is so hard! Why does the junk and wine taste so good!!!! I did pretty well the last 2 days and the scale did reflect that a little....i just hope i can start working out again so I have a little wiggle room to eat a little less healthy

2 yrs, 4 months and a few days :)

Well my beautiful girl, another month has gone by and I thought I would capture in words some of the things you have been up to.

You are such a happy, easy going girl. You really do go with teh flow most of the time although in the last month you have been a bit more whiney and have used the word NO much more often

You LOVE to play outside especially on the swings, sandbox or with the water table. You have gotten very good at swinging on teh big girl swing and you have recently discovered the joy of swinging on teh big girl swing on your belly, and twisting around. You also love to look for worms and bugs and share them with me or daddy when you find them.

You love to sing/hum to yourself lately. Your favorite song is Twinkle Twinkle and you know all the words...you also sing Abc's adn baby bumble bee as well as hum some random tunes that are in your head.

You have recently become obsessed with teh movie Tinkerbell and will ask to watch it just about everyday. You rarely watch more than 20 min or so in one sitting but you sure do enjoy it and your mommy and are happy to watch that versus Dora any day...even though you are still a big Dora fan.

You absolutely love to watch tv and eat "snacks" in mommy's bed in the morning...most mornings this isn't possible due to our schedule but when you can, you sure love to do this.

You weight about 28 pounds from what we can tell and I swear you have grown quite a bit in the last few weeks. You are wearing 2T and 3T clothes depending on what it is.

You like to snuggle close on teh couch or rocking chair when you are watching your shows. You are very lovey most of the time and we love to cuddle you close anytime you will let us

You are such a joy to be around (when you aren't whining) and I am so proud to be your mom! Keep showing me the world from your beautiful brown eyes. I love you!!!

Friday Thoughts

It is friday so time to dump my random thoughts of the week


I went for a walk/jog on Wednesday for the first time in 2 weeks and it was aweful!!! Man was it hard!!! I can't believe how fast you lose it if you stop doing it!!!! Then I go to the zoo yesterday and walk for 2 hours and I am a little sore today...how PATHETIC!!!!!!! I really need to get back at it especially since I still have a 5 k in my future on July 4th which I know will be here before I know it

I need to start being very careful about what i say around little miss izzy...yesterday we were in teh car on the way home and I had just exited the highway and was waiting to turn on the main road and it is a right turn only exit and the guy in front of me has his left blinker on...i say to myself (outloud) "what are you doing ding-dong!", then I hear a quick echo in the backseat..."doing, ding-dong!!!" thank goodness all I said was ding-dong!!! She is a little mimicker right now...and i love it!!! I love to hear her sweet little voice!

I am going out for girls night tomorrow night to a new bar in novi(new bar to me, been open about a year) to watch an 80's coverband my girlfriend loves... I am super excited but kinda intimidated...I haven't been to a bar/club that requires you to dress up a bit and am afraid I am goign to walk in and feel very old and not cute....which is why after work today i am headed to the mall to use my mother's day giftcard to see if i can find a cute shirt. Is it bad to want to look cute/sexy to go out with teh girls...when all of us are married? I have no plans on picking up any men, but I never go out like this so I am kinda looking forward to it....

That is all i have for random thoughts today, i have more but I want to get my work done so I can get out of the office early today for shopping and enjoying my free afternoon since Izzy is spending the night at my parents so DH and I can have date night.

No motivation

I have fallen off the working out wagon and I am really struggling to get back on!!!! I packed my gym bag today and I am already trying to talk myself out of it! It is supposed to be 80 degree's here today so maybe I will go to the park for a walk/jog instead of heading to the gym...then it is kinda accomplishing 2 things, working out and being outside. I am commited Sunday to go with a friend for a walk/jog so that is good. I need to get back to lifting weights because I really did enjoy that, and I really enjoyed being able to see my arms toning up!

A couple weeks ago, while DH was out of town I started doing some little excercises during izzy's bath...I have been doing my push-ups on teh counther, wall sits and tricept dips from the toilet during izzy's bath a couple days a week. (yes I am a dork....)It is funny because now as soon as she gets in the tub she says to me "push ups!" then she helps me count while doing them....maybe she will be a personal trainer when she grows up :)

On a totally unrelated note, yesterday I had a rough morning....to make a very long story short, I found out that my sil's boyfriend was cheating on her and I had to tell her. Not an easy thing to do but I knew it had to be done. She handled it very well because i think deep down she has known this all along but wasn't allowing herself to belief it....she broke up with him immediately and I think she will stay strong about it. He is such a scumbag words can't even begin to explain!!! Now I do still worry about my sil, b/c she is in a lot of financial trouble and I hope she will finally get her crap together and start being smart with the money she makes...but I will be suprised if that is really teh case. At least now that she isn't with the scumbag she was with she will stop spending money she doens't have on travel and designer clothes with him...it really does amaze me how stupid people get when they are in a bad relationship!!!! All I have to say is my marriage may not be perfect all the time but I am SOOOOO glad I am not single!!!

I am excited to have a date night with my DH on Friday! He left this morning for chicago for work and will be back Friday afternoon and my mom is going to keep izzy for the night. We have no plans but I know whatever we do it will be fun to hang out just the two of us :)

Cabin Fun!

We had a great weekend up North even though the weather on Saturday was pretty cold and wet especially in the morning. Izzy LOVED riding on the tractor with Grandpa and doing bubbles with Grandma. She even planted some peas in the garden on Sunday morning. She slept like a champ at night in hte pack in play (we called it her cabin bed) in the sunroom. She really didn't nap but wasn't grumpy so it was fine. Could not have been better. She did well in the car ride there and back. She was happy watching her shows on the dvd player and took short nap there and back.

All in all it was a nice weekend away. Here are some picture of Izzy on the tractor, bubbles with grandma and eating her first ever ice cream sandwich. She went straight to the bath tub when she was done!

Friday Thoughts

It is friday so here are my random, very tired thoughts

I was up WAY too late last night watchign Grey's Anatomy and chatting with my neighoor so I am VERY tired this morning...but as usual it was worth it. The season finale was AWESOME

It has been a long week. I didnt realize how spoiled I was only working 3 days a week until I had to work 4 this week. I did not like it at all! I had mommy guilt for shorting Iz a "mommy day" not to mention i missed being able to just enjoy thursday with no working. Luckily it will not be a regular thing, we just had some events at the office yesterday that i needed to be at, but i won't have to work thursdays anymore....

We are headed up north this weekend to DH's parents cabin. It has been since last fall since we have been there so I hope it will be good. It will be interesting to see how Izzy does b/c last time we were there she slept in teh pack in play in the sunroom....i am not sure she will go for that now since it has been since then that she has slept in a pack n play. There are only 2 bedrooms at the cabin and each has only 1 queen size bed...so if she doesn't sleep in pack in play not sure where we will put her. I am trying not to worry about it b/c I always get worked up over things like this and then it ends up being a non issue...so we will see

I think it is so funny how trained Izzy is and what a creature of habit she is. She knows her routine and it is hilarious...for example, if we go out to lunch or somethign during the week, in the car on the way home she will say "go home, take a nap" and last night we went to DQ for ice cream after dinner, in the car on the way home she said "go home, take a bath" Now just b/c she knows her routine doesn't mean she is alway super excited to do it, but for the most part she really doesn't give us trouble about naps or taking a bath and goign to bed. In fact, while Chris was gone, and we went to the hockey game, she was so tired from not napping, and I was tired fro chasing her around all afternoon. that by teh time we got home, I fed her dinner and then put her to bed without teh bath and she was so upset she didn't get a bath she was crying and saying "no bath, no bath, bath mommy bath" .

I have totally been slacking in the workout department. I have not worked out in almost 2 weeks...between chris being gone, and being sick I just haven't managed to get to the gym. I really need to get back at it and I am dreading the first couple workouts, it is amazing how quick you lose it if you stop. I am even thinking of doing a 5k in two weeks just to motivate myself to get back at it!! But i am not sure if I could manage to make it through without killing my knees. Why is it so much easier just to be lazy?

I'm Back

Man, it has been a little while since I have blogged. It has been a pretty busy week or so. DH was gone last week and then I have been sick. Sinus infection from hell! I am finally starting to feel a bit better today.

I had a wonderful mother's day despite feeling a bit under the weather....my parents and DH's family came over for lunch. DH did all the cooking and cleaning! He also let me sleep in which was awesome! I even got the IPOD docking station I wanted so now we can listen to tunes in our sun room or outside on teh patio this summer. The best part of mother's day was being woken up by Izzy busting into my room and saying "Happy Mother's Day!" in her sweet adorable little voice. Priceless!!!!

I really am amazed on a daily basis how amazing this child of mine is! She is so smart and remembers everything!!! I love her little voice, and the adorable things she says. I love watching her experience life, and the pure joy she gets out of the simple things in life. Swinging in the backyard, jumping on the neighbors trampoline. I swear she could do this all day. She loves to play with the big girls next store and would rather play with them, then the other neighbor kids that are her age. They are the big sisters she will never have and she is the little sister they will never have. It is very sweet. I feel so totally blessed to get to be this amazing childs mother!

I can't celebrate mothers day without thinking about C Izzy's birthmother. I really hope she is doing okay. We have not heard anything from her since August and I really miss her. I think I am going to send a little note with some recent pictures to the agency along with our e-mail address again b/c maybe she lost it. I hope the agency still knows where she is. They dont' really tell you that when you call. I really do miss hearing from her and C will always have a piece of my heart. Izzy will always know how much C loves her and gave her the biggest gift she could!

I think Mother's day has really become my favorite "holiday" because it celebrates what I hope is my biggest accomplishment as a person. Being a mother doesn't define who I am as a person but it sure it the part of my life I charish the most. I am truely blessed!

Sleep, I need sleep!

Okay, so I just can't win on the sleep battle the last few nights. Two nights ago, Izzy was up coughing/whining so I put her in my bed and got no sleep because she kicks me all night. Then last night, I felt like crap, took some Mucinex DM for my plugged sinuses and was up almost all night! I noticed on teh box that it contains 2x the amount of sudefed as a normal dose of sudefed so that explains why i couldn't sleep! It did make me feel better I just couldn't sleep! I just layed there for hours! I think I finally feel asleep about 3 and woke up at 7. It is going to be a long day. No matter how stuffed up I am I will not be taking those pills tonight!!!

I have trouble sleeping anyway when DH is gone...I really can't win because when he is home he snores like crazy that sometimes keeps me from sleeping...but when he is gone, i am way more of a light sleeper than normal. I think a little Tylenol PM may be in order tonight.

I have gotten past teh half way mark of DH being gone! The part that sucks is having to do the bedtime routine all by myself every night. Maybe I am spoiled that my husband and I normally split this duty, but it is exhausting.. My house is kinda a mess, and last night i didnt' feel well so no energy to do anything other than sit on the couch. Clean dishes need to be put away, dirty ones put in the dishwasher, laundry to do and vacumming...and i have no energy for any of it! Two more nights of bedtime routine and hten I get a break...my mil is coming friday morning and taking iz for the night so i can go visit my bff from college. Two more nights and two more mornings. I can do it! I think the hardest part for me is thinking of DH all relaxed, doing his favorite thing in the world...ALL WEEK!

There are times i feel like a bad/weak parent b/c i complain when DH is gone. What would i do if we had more than one! It isn't that i can't do it, it is just so much easier when DH is there to help. Does that make me a bad parent?

Okay enough negativity for one morning. I am going to continue drinking my coffee and hope my mood improves.

3 nights down, 4 to go....

Pretty Izzy

Well Dh has been gone since Saturday and up until last night we have been having a blast! Sunday I took Iz with my parents to her first ever Red Wings Hockey game and it was a playoff game. She did great! We were in a suite, and the game went into 3 overtimes!!!! We lasted till part way thru the first overtime. (they ended up losing in the 3rd overtime..oh well) That was over 4 hours with no nap...so I was pretty impressed! I think she had fun, and she is still talking about it.

trying to figure out the binoculars

Pom Pom Girl

Yesterday we had a funny "Mommy day" and celebrated my mom's birthday by taking her to lunch. Then in the afternoon we had fun playing outside with Kate our neighbor.

Picnic Snack

This is where it starts getting not so good. Izzy went to bed fine last night and about 9ish I start getting a sore throat...then at 10 izzy is up coughing /whining and didn't want to go back to her bed so I put her to bed with me. I still have no idea who a little person can take up so much room in a bed and move so much!!! I finally couldn't take it anymore at 4:30 and put her back in her bed. I woke up tired, swollen throat and feeling like crap. She woke up stuffed up adn coughing..but still in a good mood. Neither one of us has a fever which is good considering the flu that is going around. But I sure feel like crap today!!! I hope it is just a cold and I dont' get much worse because there is nothing worse than having to be a single parent and being sick, while having a sick kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At least she doesnt' seem to feel all that bad, she just sounded terrible this mornign, lots of phlem in her throat and coughing....urgh. I swear just about everytime DH goes on his fishing or hunting trips one or both of us get sick!!!!

Friday's random thoughts

It is friday again and I seem to like my new tradition of posting my random friday thoughts.

I decided i am taking izzy to the Red Wings playoff game on Sunday. My dad was offered 4 tickets to a suite and my parents are going and said "bring izzy" so even though it is at 2pm , right at her nap time, i am going to do it...and hope for the best. My mom doesn't really care about the game so she will be able to chase after izzy when she gets bored. I am thinking b/c it is a suite, and there is food and room for her to run around a little that she should be okay...we will see....

DH leaves tomorrow so hopefully the week will go by quick. I think it will. I think the worst part is going to be that I am so spoiled and used to Chris getting izzy up every morning, that it will be an adjustment to be the one that gets her up in the morning. I am normally up anyway but it is just a different routine. Plus i have to make my own coffee..another thing DH normally does...

one of my new favorite izzyism is latetly if she sees somethign she likes to eat or whatever she will say "Izzy likes those" it is so cute! She also likes to climb on things like our cube automan's and she will be climbing on them and say "help me, i stuck" even though she isn't really stuck she likes to pretend like she is.

speaking of izzy the poor kid was so constipated yesterday that she was clinging to me around my neck with her feet in teh fetal position and just wanting me to hold her. I felt so bad for her. Although i did enjoy the cuddles. Luckily she worked it out, but what a horrible helpless feeling. Time to cut down on teh cheese for a while...

hangovers truely suck the older you get. last night i had too much wine and am clearly paying for it today. Luckily my mom is bringing izzy home today i think a short nap may be in order before she gets home....staying up past midnight, drinking too much white wine and have to work the next morning not a good combo!!! But it sure was a fun night with the girls!!