8 months old!!!!!!!!

My big girl is growing up, 8 months old today!!!! She is such a little person now. Still just the two teeth, and still doing the inch worm crawl and not pulling herself up by herself yet but she is getting closer. I am loving this indian summer! Izzy loves to go outside so i don't know what I am gonna do when it is cold out!

Well gotta run, I am going to a friends tonight to help her take care of her two kids, 28 months and 4 months plus her nephew 10 months since her husband is out of town I am going to go over and help her with dinner and bed time, and Izzy will stay home with Daddy. I am sure it will show me how easy i have it with just one!!!

Single Moms

I am giving a huge kudos to all the single moms out there!!! I don't know how you do it! DH has been out of town since yesterday so I am on my own until tomorrow night. I will tell you what, i am exhausted!!!! Dinner, and bathtime and bedtime, and dishes and trash day etc is a whole lot all by myself!!!! One more night of dinner, bathtime, bedtime dh should be home by 7 tomorrow. Thank goodness my darling izzy is a good sleeper at night time anywhere from 11-12 hours , thank god for that. I am also missing dh in the mornings because i have a wonderful husband who gets up with Izzy every morning and gives her her morning bottle and changes her before he goes to work so I stay in bed until he has to leave which sometimes is as late as 7:30!!!

I have enjoyed a little me time in the evening though after izzy went to bed last night, i talked to some friends on teh phone and a indulged in my guilty pleasure...........Grey's Anatomy! I am an addict, yesterday i bougth season 3 on dvd even though i have seen them all. Last night i watched 2 episodes while enjoying a nice glass of red wine (or two :) ) My plans for tonight, after i take out teh trash and eat some dinner is to repeat last night and I think a friend is coming over to join me.

This may sound terrible but there is a part of me that enjoys dh being gone a night or two every once in a while...i can control the tv and go to bed as early as i want :) I am sure i will be more than ready to have him back by tomorrow night!!!

I wouldn't be suprised if you get pregnant

Warning, I am venting here.....

Why is it that people think that my adopted daughter isn't good enough and always say "I bet you will get pregnant in the future" Today my grandmother was telling me one of my cousins was pg with her second and I was saying that is great (i have come a long way, my infertile self was only slightly affected by the pg news instead of majorly hurt like before DD came along) Then my grandma says "I wouldn't be suprised if you get pregnant one day" What is with people!!! i calmly said yeah stanger things have happened but I am not holding my breathe" she then follows up with "You never know" I didn't bother to mention...actually I just went back on the pill so really it is not going to happen so please give up on it, I have!!! I mean I have a daughter, a child....what difference does it make...why do I need to get pg!!!

Maybe I am so senstive about it because I feel like everytime someone says tha,t it minimizes my infertility....like it isn't real or something. Like all those doctors and treatments not working, really just a fluke! Or my favorite "you are just too stressed about it, just relax it will happen" Yes I do have "unexplained infertility" but that doens't mean that just because my RE couldn't find the exact cause for it not happening doesn't mean that it ever will!

I finally feel like I have come to terms with never having a biological child. I don't secretly ache to be pregnant even though like most of us infertiles I would be lying if I didn't fantasize sometimes about getting suprised one month. I am choosing to go back on the pill to make my periods more tolerable, because without it the are HORRIBLE.

Now that I have Izzy I really don't think I want a biological child. I want to adopt again...and will definately adopt again, we might even apply as early as early next year. My family was meant to be built by adoption, that is how it is and how it will stay!!!!

Big Girl

Izzy's two bottom teeth have both poked through now so she has been in a much better mood since about Saturday. She is all over the place these days, rolling or inch worm crawling or army crawling her way into everything! Her new favorite activity is eating rice crispies, she still hasn't managed to figure out really how to pick them up and actually get them in her mouth but she is trying and she loves to eat them when i put them in her mouth. It is so funny to see her "chewing". I have also started giving her some teething cookies and she likes those too.

My mother in law got her these cute bib overalls that are 12 month size, so i had to put her in them yesterday. They are still a little long but how cute and grown up does she look!

Today we are taking her to her second Detroit Tiger game! It will be a little chilly but hopefully she will enjoy it...we took her back at the end of April but she slept the whole time....i don't think that will be the case today.

Oh and how cute is she sleeping, she was so tired last night she hardly had any of her bottle and just wanted to go to sleep. So funny sleeping with her little but in the air!

Teething Sucks!!!!!!!!!!!

Urgh, my poor baby is so bothered i think by her teeth. She was rubbing her eyes during lunch, so after her bottle i try to put her to bed about12:45 or so, she crys and crys and crys. So i get her up give her tylenol let her play till she is super fussy, about 1:15 or so, put her to bed again........she crys and crys and crys so hard she looses her breath! (which just kills me) she has been awake since 10:30 so i know she is tired.........so i take her out again because not even rocking will get her to sleep and she will calm down if i pick her up but then wants to play......so at just before 2 i make her a 4 oz bottle, even though it has only been 2 hours since she ate. She sucks down the whole thing and finally falls asleep!

I swear, I wish she could talk and tell me what she needs, i don't konw if she was really hungry or if the bottle was just soothing for her. Poor kid, i feel so bad when she crys, it makes me want to cry!

It is windy and raining off and on today so i could really go outside. I packed her up to take her to Gymboree today drove all teh way there only to find out the place is out of business!!!!!! Big bummer!!! They have 2 other locations, one is about the same distance but it doesn't have the class she takes on Fridays(and dinkypopsnomore and i like to take the girls on Friday's) and the other location does have classes on fridays but it is a bit more of a drive....but i guess is worth it. I think Izzy really enjoys it and it gives us something different to do.

I just want my happy go lucky baby back.........hopefully she will come back soon!

Long Day

Man I don't know what it was about today but it is 6:00 and I am exhausted. Izzy was a bit crabby today I think her teeth are bothering her. She took a short nap in the morning from about 8:45-9:45 and then I couldn't get her to go down again until 1:30...she was just so fussy today, if i was on the floor playing with her she would reach for me and once i pick her up she wants back down.

Then DH doesn't get home until 6 for the second day in a row, which i know he has a lot of work to do, but by the 6:00 today i have had it!!!! I am going to my best friends house on Sat night for the evening and can't wait for a night off. my golf league is over now so i lost my one night off, so Sat will be great!!! Don't get me wrong, I love Izzy and dh, but having that one night a week off from bathtime and bedtime was so nice!!!

So here i am sitting and blogging (with a beer :) ) while he is upstairs reading her a story or something after I put her to bed, but she wasn't asleep yet. Lets hope tomorrow is a better day, hopefully we will get out of the house either to Gymboree or to the park. I dn't know what i am going to do come winter, i think Izzy really gets sick of being home, and we will really miss gong outside..........I guess we will have to go to the mall or something........cold weather stay away!!!

End of summer

I can't believe summer is almost over, it went by so fast! It is funny though because I certainly don't notice holiday's etc as much as I used to now that i am home everyday and most days are the same.....i guess i just look forward to weekends and holidays because dh is home.

Not much is new with us. Izzy is trying SOOOO hard to crawl, she gets up on all fours, rocks back and fourth, the pulls in her legs, and her arms give out so she falls down, but manages to move forward. She also is rolling all over the place as another means to get where she wants to go. It makes changing her diaper or clothes VERY frustrating!!!

She has started a new trick of screeching at the top of her lungs just cause she can, not because she is upset....it was cute the first couple of times but it gets ear piercing!

She is finally getting a tooth or two in the bottom, one as poked through the gum but is hasn't quite popped up yet.

She is eating like a champ with her fruits and veggies, she loves them......but don't try to give her chicken...........she gags! She opens her mouth, sticks out her tongue and gags! I tried mixing it with greeen beans one of her favorites yesterday but there was no fooling her! I guess I can't blame her the stuff looks disgusting!

Other than that not much new. She has been tired the last few days probably from the teething, yesterday she took 4 hours worth of naps! I am not complaining though!

Oh we moved her to her big girl carseat too, she seems to like it. She could have still used the infant one because ours goes up to 30 lbs, but i thought she would be more comfortable in the convertable one. I still haven't decided if we are goign to buy a second one or try to make due with just hte one, i think we will probalby have to get a second one because it was hard to get in my car so taking it in and out doesn't sound like a great option, plus we drive dh's car a lot on weekends since it is a company car and we don't pay for it.

Well izzy and i are goign to east lansing today to meet a friend for lunch..it will be Izzy's first time to MSU...I think I might have to get her a little spartan something :)