Bedtime Nightmare!

Ok I am feeling like a terrible parent right now. DH is out of town has been since Monday. Izzy was a bear at bedtime last night cried for an hour with me going in every 10 minutes or so. See,now that she can stand up in her bed she will just stand there and cry. So.....tonight i knew she was exhausted because she hardly napped this afternoon. I gave her her evening bottle in her room in the dark after her bath like we do everynight, she was sleepy i put her on my shoulder to rock her and she picks her head up and is smiling at me...............i know right then we are gonna battle.

So i put her to bed say goodnight i love you, and walk out. About 2 minutes later she starts the crying, which escalates to SCREAMING, i tell myself i need to be strong, and let her CIO so i let her go about 5-10 minutes, call DH talk to him for 10 more minutes before i tell him i can't take it anymore and i am going in. I hang up with him and get to outside her door and can her, she is done crying and just light fussing trying to catch her breathe after crying so hard. WHO HOOOH i did it!!! I then make dinner and about 30 min later she is crying again. I go up give her her pacifier pat her butt and walk out and think she is sleeping. I then get in the shower and take a LONG HOT shower, it was great...until i got out and realized she was screaming again. I put a towel on my head and robe and went up stairs. She was awake but not really and crying, so i picked her up and she stopped crying and we sat in the rocking chair. It took her 15 minutes before she was breathing normally....I almost thought I was going to have to take her to the ER, i mean she was sleeping but kept kinda gasping for air. She did settle down and was breathing fine when I put her to bed but talk about freaking me out and making me feel TERRIBLE.

So to all you moms out there, how do you deal with bedtime, when the baby just stands up and crys, and if you go in there she stops and smiles at you. She was clearly WAY to worked up from her half hour crying episode, that I don't know that I can let her do that again........but I need to do something.......what do i do????????????????? Any tips???????? Until her recent aquired skill of pulling up on everything most night she would go to sleep without trouble, maybe once a week we had to go up and settle her down but most night she would just go to sleep.....what changed? Is this normal? What do I do?

Big Girl

Well we made it from up north. The first night was very rough, Izzy just can't sleep in the same room with us, she woke up when we went to bed andt hen wouldn't settle back down because she knew we were there, we finally had to move her to the living room. The next night we put her in the sun room and covered the windows with blankets, that was much better, we all slept better having her out of our room.

She is changing so fast, she is getting to be a very fast crawler and trying to pull herself up on everything. She finally made it to standing in her bed today when i went to get her from her nap...here is her smiling face. I will blog more after she goes to bed for the night.

Tired

I don't know what is wrong with me but I feel like I have not slept in like a month! I have, I go to bed around 10ish every night and get up around 7. Izzy normally sleeps through the night, except Sun and Monday night she woke up once because her gums hurt...I don't see or feel any teeth but i know they are bugging her. Anyway , i wake up every day and don't feel refreshed and just feel tired! I don't know what is wrong with me...I know i don't always sleep great because DH snores terribly but still! I shoudl be able to catch up one of these days right? Maybe it is just hormones from going back on the pill who knows. I hope I snap out of it soon.

Not much new here, Izzy is almost 9 months and I just can't believe it! She is such a big girl, crawling and pulling up on anything she can get her hands on. Eating finger foods like Cheerios and cooked diced carrots. I look at her everyday and am so thankful for her beautiful face.

DH is going up north this weekend and Izzy and I are staying home, i am having enough trouble sleeping i am not going to make it worse up north. I am sure I will be good and ready for him to get home on Sunday. I will be secretly happy when hunting season is over, one more month!

Today is Wednesday so it is Gymboree day. Izzy really likes it and it is nice to go somewhere that she can crawl all over and I dn't have to worry about her getting into something. She also actually went down for an early nap today so she should be good and refreshed for class instead of very tired. It normally falls during her nap time but not today :) The other moms in teh class are nice and it is nice to compare notes on what the kids are doing and tips to get them to eat or listen to a book (i still haven't mastered that, Izzy just wants to eat teh books)

I need to start excerising i have decided i just have such a hard time with finding motivation. I lost a bunch of weight doing weight watchers before Izzy but have since put probably 10lbs back on and am starting to feel very large. I konw i can loose it with just eating better but it is so hard being home all day not to snack or eat the wrong things. Dh joined a weight loss challenge at work to see who among the 5 of them can be the biggest loser by the end of Nov...which means i really need to be good about making good dinners and not having junk (like the halloween candy that is always calling my name) in the house. I am happy DH is wanting to loose the weight he like me lost a bunch but have put some back on. The only problem with this biggest loser challenge is it is $100 a person and winner takes all!!!!!!! $100 seems a little high to me especially since i have been feeling especially broke and sorry for myself that i don't make a whole lot of money......but i guess if it motiviates him that is what is important..and who knows maybe he will suprise me and win...$500 is a lot of money :)

Okay enough rambling, gotta clean up a little before peanut wakes up and it is time for gymboree

Fall Fun

I haven't blogged in a while been busy I guess. I love fall, despite teh 80+ degree weather we have been having, I think starting today the fall weather is finally coming around. We went up North this last weekend and the fall color was about at peak and it was just beautiful!!! I used to love going up north to DH's parents cabin because it was so relaxing. I have to say it is a lot less relaxing now with Izzy since I take care of her (with my mother in laws help) I still like it up there with just one problem........sleeping! It is a 2 bedroom cabin so DH , Izzy and I all share a room and none of us seem to sleep well. The bed dh and i share is very uncomfortable and izzy sleeps in the pack and play but not very well. Poor thing tosses and turns all night and one night woke up at 5:30 and the other 4am. So as much as i like it up there, i don't see us goign back for a while. DH wants to go next weekend.....it is hunting season.....but I think Izzy and I will stay home. We did get Izzy the cutest little hat that is camo and says Daddy's little hunter. Isn't she cute exploring the leaves and wearing her hat!

Well she did great on teh car ride home just over 3 hours. And she was so excited to get home it was hilarious. She offically is crawling! She had done it a little up north but when we got her home she was just so happy to be home she was crawling everywhere. She is also pulling herself up on her toys and us. She hasn't gotten to standing in her crib yet but I am sure it will be anyday now. She is growing up so fast! Her new favorite activity is eating cheerios! She LOVES them and will sit in her high chair and eat them as long as you let her pretty much. She has gotten quite good at picking them up and getting them in her mouth. It is so cute! I am anxious to take her to the doctor at the end of the month to see how big she is. She has really slimmed out a lot the last few weeks movign around do much.

Oh and I can't wait for halloween! I got her the CUTEST costume from old navy, it is a monkey! SO darn cute. Hopefully I can keep her awake long enough to put her in it and take her to teh neighbors house. Trick or treating starts at 6 and that is normally when she goes to bed so we will see how it goes.

Well i have to finish getting ready for work, the babysitter is coming in about 45 minutes and Izzy is still sleeping for her morning nap.

Little pumpkin

How cute is my little pumpkin!!!!!!!! We took Izzy to apple orchard yesteday and had a great day. I love fall!!!