Time to get serious

Well it is time for me to get serious about getting back on my healthy eating, working out wagon!!! While i made it to the gym once this week and will be going this afternoon, it is not enough.

I am feeling really bloated lately and teh scale is sneaking up. I am up about 3 pounds and I am totally afraid that if i don't try to kick it now, before I know it I am goign to be back at 150 and that will NOT happen. I got rid of all my bigger clothes and cannot afford to go shopping nor do i want to ever by a size 10 again!!!!

I hate that the weight comes back on so easy!!!!!!! I hate writing down what I eat, but i think I am going to have to for the next couple weeks to get myself back on track!!!!

This weekend will be tough though because we will be up north with the in laws and i must say my mother in law is a GREAT cook and doesn't always cook light..and a whole weekend of her cooking and no workouts could be trouble...plus DH and I are going out to a super nice dinner at one of our favorite high end restaurants Saturday night to celebrate our 6 year wedding anniversary which is monday. Oh well at least if I get in a good workout today and eat less of the food that is put in front of me...that is about all i can do.

Urgh, i guess i should be thankful that i have managed to get most of the way through summer with very poor eating/exercising habits without putting on weight before now.

Time to get back on track!!!!

Izzy-ism's

Well seeing that today Izzy is officially closer to being 3 years old than 2 years old (OMG I can't believe it) i thought i would capture some of her adorable izzy-ism's. It kills me some of the cute things that are coming out of her mouth these days. These are in no real order just top of mind.

• Izzy loves listening to "my songs" in the car, all her toddler music that is loaded in the ipod or cd player, when we get in the car she quickly says "I want my songs" I start up the playlist and depending on her mood I hear one of two things " Again!" after one she likes or "I no like this one!" if she doesn't like a song and wants me to skip it...this is how most of our car rides in mommy's car go!
• If she doesn't like something she says "I can't like it!"
• She quite enjoys milkshakes (ie yogurt smoothies or the horizon milks in a box) but she calls them "shake milks"
• Last night at dinner while we were eating you could hear the freezer defrosting and Izzy said "Who is peeing!!!!"
• Last night when in the bath tub DH was trying to clean behind izzy's ears and she said "Don't do that daddy, don't take my ear off!!!" I almost peed my pants it was so funny
• She is always into "my shows" as she calls the various cartoons she watches , one of her and mommy's new favorites is little bear and each episode contains 3 short shows, after each one she will say "Another one coming on!"
• When anyone coughs she will always tell you to "cover your mouth!" well yesterday daddy tooted and she said "cover your tush daddy!!"
• If she burps she will say "excuse me, good manners"
• If you ask Izzy what she wants for dinner about 80% of the time she says "pizza man", i swear we only order pizza once a week max, sometimes not that much
• If she is not liking what you are saying to her she will say "don't talk at me!"

Those are just the top of mind things i can think of that come out of Izzy's mouth on a daily basis. I really can't believe she is 2 years , 7 months!!! So grown up!!!! I wish I could slow it down but i know i can't so I am enjoying every minute of it (minus the toddler moment meltdowns and No's that are more frequent these days too!)

Wordless Wednesday

Catching up with me

I think my bad eating/no excercising habits are finally catching up with me a bit. I got on the scale this morning and did not like what I saw!! Not to mention i feel bloated and blah!!!! So back to the gym I go. I am headed there this afternoon with my brother. He is in town from Florida and has always been in very good shape. We will probably do our own thing but either way I am going and it won't be the only time this week. I have been lucky so far that the weight hasn't come back on but as of this morning I was up a solid 2 pounds and need to get back in check before that number turns into 5 or 10. I hate how easy it is for that to happen!!!

In unrelated topic, my least favorite subject..potty training. Yesterday afternoon Iz decided she wanted to wear underwear. So i put her in them and she kept them dry but wouldn't really pee either when I know she had to go!! Finally we were going out to dinner I told her she needed to go potty or put a diaper on and she said diaper on. She was still dry before her bath!!! This morning she woke up and had a wet diaper and insisted on wearing underwear..i put her in the underwear and she was dry when i dropped her off to my mom's house...just talked to my mom and she was dry until they had to leave to go to her gym when my mom put her back in a diaper because she was going to the childcare and she again wouldn't go on the potty!! I am encouraged izzy is wanting to wear underwear but worried that she is not peeing....should I be concerned or is it part of the process? URGH so frustrating!!! I just don't want to scar the poor kid!!

Friday Thoughts

It is friday and i feel like dumping some thoughts

-Izzy has been a bit of a handful this week, i think part of it was her paying us back for shipping her off for the weekend and the other part is just her being 2.5 and showing us what 2.5 yr old behavior can be. The early part of the week was FILLED with NO, NO, NO!!! and tantrums over STUPID stuff....like not wanting to even try 1 bite of meatballs (which i know she likes) and resulted in a huge crying fit that I actually had to leave the room for because I thought I was going to blow! and finally ended in her taking a bite and then saying a few minutes later when she was down from teh table "I like it!!!!" URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thankfully the second half of the week was MUCH better but she is definately showing some serious independence and Sass!!! Please give me the strength to handle the behavior for the next 2 years, I hear 3 is even worse than 2!!!!

-I am going to DH's 20 yr hs reunion this weekend so that ought to be interesting, seeing that he is 6 yrs older than me and grew up in a different city i won't know too many people. I do know 2 of his friends and their wifes so that is good. I got teh cutest new dress from White House Black Market (never really shopped there before, holey dangerous!!! So much cute stuff but expensive) I hope i am not over dressed, i really dont' now how people will come. we will see

-no new news on potty training, it is hard for me because i know of so many different people with girls iz's age and they have all had such recent success...but I keep telling myself, every kid is different and I really feel like i need a month or so to give it a rest and then start over and be more consistent. I am planning on about end of september really pushing it, starting on a Thursday when I am home frome work, putting her in underwear (with no option) and being consistant all day, will ask my mom to do teh same on friday and then can continue to follow through Sat, Sun, and Monday since I don't work. For now, she goes when she wants too go (which is normally once a day or so) and other than that i am not pushing it...i really didn't like to see her hold it like that , i think it was really stressing her out

-i am loving that it is finally summer weather, too bad it is mid august!!! I haven't been to the Lifetime pool all summer!!!! Maybe we will go this weekend. I get overwhelmed to take iz to pool by myself, i know can do it but I also know she will wear me out in about an hour of chasing her non stop.

-i am trying to be better about eating better but it is so hard some days...i wish i could eat what i want and stay this size!!! I get on teh scale almost everyday just to make sure i am styaing in my"range" that i allow myself. When i see the morning number get to a certain point, i try to keep myself in check with the food (mostly the sweets and the alchohol that gets me) So far that seems to be working but we will see how long that continues. At some point i am giong to have to get back to working out regularly before it catches up with me...and before DH cancels my $66 a month gym membership that i haven't used in over a month!!!

Long time no talk!

We got a new e-mail from our bm!!!! It has been about a year since we have heard from her!! I sent her a card and a bunch of the pictures from our family photo shoot about 2 weeks ago. In teh card i put our e-mail address in case she lost it and so guess what...she got the card and sent a message!!!! It is nice to hear from her. Sounds like she is doing okay and even has a job. She gave me her new cell number and said to txt her or call her.

She loved the pictures and was so happy to see Iz doing so well and all of us so happy. I even put in there a few pictures of the 3 of us adn one of them was Iz hugging us, see below...and she said that was her favorite.

So now i will have to txt her or somethign which I am sure will be alittle ackward to actually talk to her b/c it has been so long but I am so happy to hear from her!!!! I am glad she likes hearing how well and happy we all are.

To cut or not to cut

I called to make a hair appt and was suprised when she said she could get me in TODAY. So i have very little time to decide what to do. I am SOOOO sick of my hair, the ends are NASTY and i hate the color...so do i just trim it and refresh the color...or do i cut it a bit shorter???? I am not goign to chop it too much because I like to be able to get most of it back but I am in the mood for a change.....

We will see what happens tonight!

(talk about a useless blog post....can you tell i am severely procrastinating at work?)

Taking a break

I am taking a break from the potty training! Maybe i am accepting defeat for right now, or just trying to keep both mine and Izzy's sanity in tact!!!! I am beyond frustrated and it clearly shows through to izzy and is shows in how she is reacting to going potty.

Yesterday was a very frustrating morning of a lot of "i go pee, pee, or I go potty mommy" so we would run to the potty and she would do nothing or a few drips. She woke up dry in the morning so i knew she had to go, she kept doing the pee pee dance and couldnt settle yet every time she would say she had to go then wouldn't go at all to the bathroom or would and wouldn't do anything. I even told her just go in your diaper because i am afraid now she is trying to hold it and I don't want her to end up with a bladder infection or anything. I was so frustrated after two nights ago and this morning that i wanted to scream! Her new trick is now during when she is eating she says "i go potty " adn acts like she has to go so she doesn't have to eat. while i don't want to ignore her request, it is very frustrating when you get her up from teh table and then she does nothing, then you have to put her back at the table etc. URGH!!!! I hope I didn't create this monster by pushing her too early.

So because of all of this I am going to take a little break. Now if she wants to go potty adn tells me, i obviously still have to take her, but I am going to back off on asking etc and try again when I can focus for 4-5 days and force the underwear issue.

Between her antics and my terrible cramps yesterday I couldn't take much more! Thankfully the cramps are much better today and she is at my moms so we both get a little break today.

On another note, my dr appt went okay yesterday. She wasn't too concerned but said we would keep an eye on it and follow up in a month or so if needed. It was a huge relief but I will be happy when I get the official all clear either next week when I go back for my pap or in a month if i have to go back to follow up.

The highlight of my day yesterday is when I got on teh scale at teh dr office. You see I haven't seen this dr in about 2 years becasue last year i had my pap done just by my normal family practice dr. The nurse who took me back to the room originally said she didnt' need a weight for me but then when she looked at the chart she said "wow, you certainly don't weigh what it says here, lets get your weight" the last time I was there I weighed 152 and yesterday I was 132!!!!!!....so what did i do..after my appt i stopped at Taco Bell for lunch!

A little progress

Well I think the day of potty training was not a total loss. Aparently Daddy had a talk with izzy on their walk about telling mommy when you have to go potty. She was still in a diaper this afternoon but while we were at the birthday party today Izzy told me she had to go potty two different times!!

I took her in the potty (and unfortunatley her little friend Kate, who is 3 and potty trained excpet at night, had to come too, she insisted and since it was her house i couldn't say no) So we had 2 "potty party's today" me, izzy and Kate and both girls attempted and to go potty and izzy actually went one of the times(Kate went both times)!!! I was so happy and proud of her!!! Then tonight while we were ready books for bed she said she had to go potty so i put her on the potty and i am not sure she went but either way she tried and did not fight me to put her diaper back on and go back to her stories.

I am more encouraged than earlier and we will see what tomorrow brings!!! Maybe tomorrow the secret weapon pez dispenser will come out as extra incentive. So far the only "reward" she gets is a stamp, an dthat is only when she asks for it or I remember.

We have no big plans tomorrow so we will focus again and see what happens.

Potty Training, Day 1-abandoned mission

Well Day 1 of my bright idea to try underwear on iz was a TOTAL disaster!!!!

I had talked to dh about maybe trying underwear this weekend since we had no major plans other than a bday party next store at 3pm. So when iz woke up we took off her diaper (which was hardly wet) and asked if she wanted to get on teh potty...got a big fat NOOOOOOO

So then told her today she was going to wear underwear...i went up stairs got all her new undies out and told her to pick..at first she was excited but then she just stalled. Eventually DH helped her pick and put them on...which brought on a few tears but short lived. We then kept telling her to tell us if she had to go pee pee etc etc. Well we knew she had to go, but she would not go sit on potty...she went into kitched and peed on teh floor (at least it is not carpet).

I quick picked her up put her on teh potty and told her it is okay, this is what happens when we pee in underwear, you get wet. That is why we want to pee on the potty etc etc, encourage her to pee on potty ...she just plays and stalls and doesn't pee.

I then clean her up and dh helps her pick a new pair. Well less than 10 min later she pees again on the carpet! Same thing back to the potty.

Well i was getting ready to leave to go for a walk with a friend asked Dh if he wanted me to keep going with underwear or put on a diaper . He gets an attitude with me, I get upset put back on a diaper and leave the house crying.......................so much for that!!!!! Iwent for my walk and he took iz to the park in a diaper.

I need help!!! Is she just not ready yet or is this part of the process. She really will not get on teh potty seat when you want her to ....it has to be her idea. She has been peeing on the potty for at least a month. She only goes when she wants to go but if she wants to she will go. We give her lots of praise and she would get a stamp. She will always say I DID IT!!!! But all of this only happens when she wants to go not if you ask her if she has to go. She either will tell me she wants to go or sometimes if i am going i ask if she wants to go to and then she will go. Put rarely after nap or in the morning or any other time i ask if she has to go, or say lets go potty...the standard response then is NOOOOOOOOOO

I hate this potty training! I feel like I have no idea what the heck I am doing, I feel like b/c of my work schedule it is going to be impossible for me to be consistant unless i take a week off work (which i will do if i need to ) I also don't want to push her if she isn't ready. I really don't want to push her and maybe she just isn't ready yet and we should go back to letting her go when she wants to but not push it and try again in another month. I don't know!!! HELP HELP HELP!!!!!