4 weeks already!!

Well, I can't believe it, DD is 4 weeks already!!!! Time sure flies!!! Everything is going really well. I was sick earlier this week with a sinus infection which made things interesting. Luckily DH stayed home Mon and Tues otherwise I don't know what I would have done!

I am getting used to the getting up in the middle of the night i guess. I hope she starts going longer then every 3 hours soon, but I guess she will when she is ready and no sooner.

I heard from teh birthfamily via e-mail the other day which was nice. It was the first I had heard from her since before we left Texas. I really can't explain the feelings I have for this couple....I will forever be grateful to them for giving me something, I could never give myself, the gift of being a mommy! I really wish them all teh best and hope that life gives them some breaks and good things come their way. I want to remain in contact with them which is something that 1 month ago, I never would have thought! THis process of semi-open adoption is truely a gift and a blessing and now that I have been through it I can't imagine it any other way!!

You see I am adopted myself.....only my adoption was completey closed (as were most at that time) All i have is a biece of paper that gives a description of what the birth parents looked like, their interests and a brief medical history. It is interesting because before I went through this experience, I never cared to track them down, but a part of me feels differently now. The only feelings I had about it growing up is I would have liked to see a picture of them. Well now a part of me wants to try to track them down to say thank you!

My DD is so blessed to be able to know exactly where she came from, and know that her parents met and got to know her birthparents, and we can tell her without a hesitation how much they love her and want the best for her. We have so many pictures of all of us together, which I am sure DD will love to look at. It really is an awesome experience and so much better then closed adoption (in my opinion) We have to go back to TX at the 6 month mark for the finalization and I hope that we will all be able to go and we can meet up with the birth family so they can see how well she is doing. I hope that they will always be a part of our lives, (to an extent of course) i have so much love and admiration for them, I will forever be a changed person because of them!!!

Here is a picture i took last week I think, isn'tDD the cutest!!