Well I need to start out by wishing the BIGGEST CONGRATS to Mike& Liz. They have been waiting so long to get the call they got yesterday, they have been matched and their future son is due today! I wish them much luck that everything goes well. I hope this is the son they have always been dreaming of. What a Christmas miracle that would be.
Reading Liz's post today totally brought me back to when we got that call! I can't believe it was almost a year ago already. What a whirlwind it was for us and I am so thankful for that. I look at Izzy now and it continues to amaze me how blessed we are with the beautiful healthy child! It is crazy to think that a year ago today we were still waiting to be picked and now we have almost a 1 yr old! Crazy!!!!!
I am so torn about wanting to do it again. There is a small part of me that feels complete with Izzy and we are meant to be a family of 3 but I also know a lot of that is driven by fear. We were SOOOOOOOO lucky with Izzy, the birth parents are amazing, we totally clicked with them and everything went perfectly...can we get that lucky again? Then there is the money part which is so overwhelming and yes I am still just a little bit bitter that we have to spend $30,000+ to have another child! I had a friend say to me on Sat "you totally need to get another one " my answer to her was "well if you had to spend $30,000+ to have another child you would seriously think twice about it!" That shut her up pretty quick, and I know she doens't understand, she can't she has two beautiful biological children and never struggled TTC or riden the emotional rollercoaster of adoption. I also worry, can I handle another one....there are tough days with just Izzy and she is a GREAT baby, can I do it with two?
I was reading all my old posts about before we got matched and then when we got Izzy and it does make me want to do it again. Who knows what will happen. DH and I have agreed that we wouldn't be making that decision until at least Jan, which is right around the corner.....I do feel that if i am goign to do it again i would rather do it sooner than later even though it will be harder at first with two young ones, it will be better in the long run.
Who knows, but I am thinking about Liz and wishing her and Mike the best and remembering the rollercoaster of emotions we had during that time, less than a year ago!!!!!!!!!
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I'm right there with you. Lily is such a good baby and our situation, like yours, ended up being ideal! I have days where I can't wait to do it again, and then days where I think, MAN, what ELSE could I do with 30K? :) Think of what we could give Lily as an only child. But, then I go back and think how invaluable my siblings are. It's so hard!! :)
Can I say how excited I was to read that Izzy has Lily's hat in purple? Don't you love it? It's so cute:)
Awww, thanks!
Wow, it's hard to believe it's been almost a year since you were in our position. ANd I can totally understand your hesitancy about starting the roller coaster ride again.
I know, it's hard to decide about the future like that. And the money for #2, starting to think about it makes my head hurt!
We feel exactly the same way as you stated here.
Josie adoption was so easy and perfect that we will probably never have a case like hers again.
And she is so wonderful.
What a tough decision.
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