Running Woes

Running---
I need an attitude adjustment on my running. I am so frustrated i could scream. I know i have made some progress since i started a couple years ago casually running but compared to the average runner i still suck! i have created these crazy goals for myself and I am so indimated by them. My first 10K is coming up in May 12th and I still have yet to go more than 3.4 and the last time i ran it was only 2.4 and I was dying! When is it going to get better? When will i ever be able to run without having to walk! I have a lot of runner friends and seeing them reach some amazing goals is so inspiring and defeating at the same. I just don't get how they do it!!! I know I need to just stick with it, and try to stay positive but it is real struggle for me!!

I made it a priority to run minimum of 3 days a week in prep for this 10K (and don't even get me started on the insane goal of a half freaking marathon i am registered for in October!!! That totally scares the shit out of me!). I guess on a positve note I have done this for the last 3 straight weeks. ...i have run 3 times a week with an average of 8.5 miles total for the week. ...my times and my stamina are just not getting better. I know so much of it is in my head. How do I get out of my head???

In my job we teach all about Attitudes , Behavors and Technique ...and I know from work that Attitude is the most important...so why can't i fix it???? I think i need to start changing my mental image...need to focus on positive and maybe even start journaling...we teach things like this to clients everyday. Journal positive thoughts not negeative thoughts....yet look at me! Urgh.

Okay here I go:
I am a runner, I am a runner I am a runner. I can do this I just need to stick with it and stay focused.

My clothes are packed and I will run outside today for 3 miles....I can do it. I am traveling this weekend to Boston for a conference for work. I am committed to running once during the trip. The girl i am rooming with is a great runner and said she wants to run with me , be my cheerleader and help push me along. I need to let her do this instead of saying....i can't keep up with her, she won't want to run with me...she just said she did.

I also need to lose 5-8 pounds but more to this later. Lets focus on one thing at a time.

I am a runner, i run more than 90% of hte population of people....or something like that. I can do it. Just stick with it. I am a runner.