Long time no talk!

We got a new e-mail from our bm!!!! It has been about a year since we have heard from her!! I sent her a card and a bunch of the pictures from our family photo shoot about 2 weeks ago. In teh card i put our e-mail address in case she lost it and so guess what...she got the card and sent a message!!!! It is nice to hear from her. Sounds like she is doing okay and even has a job. She gave me her new cell number and said to txt her or call her.

She loved the pictures and was so happy to see Iz doing so well and all of us so happy. I even put in there a few pictures of the 3 of us adn one of them was Iz hugging us, see below...and she said that was her favorite.

So now i will have to txt her or somethign which I am sure will be alittle ackward to actually talk to her b/c it has been so long but I am so happy to hear from her!!!! I am glad she likes hearing how well and happy we all are.

To cut or not to cut

I called to make a hair appt and was suprised when she said she could get me in TODAY. So i have very little time to decide what to do. I am SOOOO sick of my hair, the ends are NASTY and i hate the color...so do i just trim it and refresh the color...or do i cut it a bit shorter???? I am not goign to chop it too much because I like to be able to get most of it back but I am in the mood for a change.....

We will see what happens tonight!

(talk about a useless blog post....can you tell i am severely procrastinating at work?)

Taking a break

I am taking a break from the potty training! Maybe i am accepting defeat for right now, or just trying to keep both mine and Izzy's sanity in tact!!!! I am beyond frustrated and it clearly shows through to izzy and is shows in how she is reacting to going potty.

Yesterday was a very frustrating morning of a lot of "i go pee, pee, or I go potty mommy" so we would run to the potty and she would do nothing or a few drips. She woke up dry in the morning so i knew she had to go, she kept doing the pee pee dance and couldnt settle yet every time she would say she had to go then wouldn't go at all to the bathroom or would and wouldn't do anything. I even told her just go in your diaper because i am afraid now she is trying to hold it and I don't want her to end up with a bladder infection or anything. I was so frustrated after two nights ago and this morning that i wanted to scream! Her new trick is now during when she is eating she says "i go potty " adn acts like she has to go so she doesn't have to eat. while i don't want to ignore her request, it is very frustrating when you get her up from teh table and then she does nothing, then you have to put her back at the table etc. URGH!!!! I hope I didn't create this monster by pushing her too early.

So because of all of this I am going to take a little break. Now if she wants to go potty adn tells me, i obviously still have to take her, but I am going to back off on asking etc and try again when I can focus for 4-5 days and force the underwear issue.

Between her antics and my terrible cramps yesterday I couldn't take much more! Thankfully the cramps are much better today and she is at my moms so we both get a little break today.

On another note, my dr appt went okay yesterday. She wasn't too concerned but said we would keep an eye on it and follow up in a month or so if needed. It was a huge relief but I will be happy when I get the official all clear either next week when I go back for my pap or in a month if i have to go back to follow up.

The highlight of my day yesterday is when I got on teh scale at teh dr office. You see I haven't seen this dr in about 2 years becasue last year i had my pap done just by my normal family practice dr. The nurse who took me back to the room originally said she didnt' need a weight for me but then when she looked at the chart she said "wow, you certainly don't weigh what it says here, lets get your weight" the last time I was there I weighed 152 and yesterday I was 132!!!!!!....so what did i do..after my appt i stopped at Taco Bell for lunch!

A little progress

Well I think the day of potty training was not a total loss. Aparently Daddy had a talk with izzy on their walk about telling mommy when you have to go potty. She was still in a diaper this afternoon but while we were at the birthday party today Izzy told me she had to go potty two different times!!

I took her in the potty (and unfortunatley her little friend Kate, who is 3 and potty trained excpet at night, had to come too, she insisted and since it was her house i couldn't say no) So we had 2 "potty party's today" me, izzy and Kate and both girls attempted and to go potty and izzy actually went one of the times(Kate went both times)!!! I was so happy and proud of her!!! Then tonight while we were ready books for bed she said she had to go potty so i put her on the potty and i am not sure she went but either way she tried and did not fight me to put her diaper back on and go back to her stories.

I am more encouraged than earlier and we will see what tomorrow brings!!! Maybe tomorrow the secret weapon pez dispenser will come out as extra incentive. So far the only "reward" she gets is a stamp, an dthat is only when she asks for it or I remember.

We have no big plans tomorrow so we will focus again and see what happens.

Potty Training, Day 1-abandoned mission

Well Day 1 of my bright idea to try underwear on iz was a TOTAL disaster!!!!

I had talked to dh about maybe trying underwear this weekend since we had no major plans other than a bday party next store at 3pm. So when iz woke up we took off her diaper (which was hardly wet) and asked if she wanted to get on teh potty...got a big fat NOOOOOOO

So then told her today she was going to wear underwear...i went up stairs got all her new undies out and told her to pick..at first she was excited but then she just stalled. Eventually DH helped her pick and put them on...which brought on a few tears but short lived. We then kept telling her to tell us if she had to go pee pee etc etc. Well we knew she had to go, but she would not go sit on potty...she went into kitched and peed on teh floor (at least it is not carpet).

I quick picked her up put her on teh potty and told her it is okay, this is what happens when we pee in underwear, you get wet. That is why we want to pee on the potty etc etc, encourage her to pee on potty ...she just plays and stalls and doesn't pee.

I then clean her up and dh helps her pick a new pair. Well less than 10 min later she pees again on the carpet! Same thing back to the potty.

Well i was getting ready to leave to go for a walk with a friend asked Dh if he wanted me to keep going with underwear or put on a diaper . He gets an attitude with me, I get upset put back on a diaper and leave the house crying.......................so much for that!!!!! Iwent for my walk and he took iz to the park in a diaper.

I need help!!! Is she just not ready yet or is this part of the process. She really will not get on teh potty seat when you want her to ....it has to be her idea. She has been peeing on the potty for at least a month. She only goes when she wants to go but if she wants to she will go. We give her lots of praise and she would get a stamp. She will always say I DID IT!!!! But all of this only happens when she wants to go not if you ask her if she has to go. She either will tell me she wants to go or sometimes if i am going i ask if she wants to go to and then she will go. Put rarely after nap or in the morning or any other time i ask if she has to go, or say lets go potty...the standard response then is NOOOOOOOOOO

I hate this potty training! I feel like I have no idea what the heck I am doing, I feel like b/c of my work schedule it is going to be impossible for me to be consistant unless i take a week off work (which i will do if i need to ) I also don't want to push her if she isn't ready. I really don't want to push her and maybe she just isn't ready yet and we should go back to letting her go when she wants to but not push it and try again in another month. I don't know!!! HELP HELP HELP!!!!!

Friday Thoughts

It has been a while since I have done my friday thoughts. No pre-thought here so we will see what comes out!

I really need a haircut! The last time I got my hair done was omg i just checked my calendar could be since April 1st!!! Yikes!!! Last time i got it done i just had it trimmed b/c i wanted to grow it out. I also had highlights added for the first time in a long time. Well now my hair is shaggy and light (it gets lighter in the summer) So now i am debating if i am going to die it back darker and how much to cut. I wanted to grow it out but i am loosing my patience about it. But i know if i cut it i will wish it was longer. Either way in needs at least an inch off b/c the ends are nasty! I need to just make the appt already and just do what i feel like doing that day!

I am totally excited for next weekend. Iz is goign up north with DH's parents for the WHOLE weekend without us!!!!!!!!!!!! I think this is a first ever that she has been gone a whole weekend while we remained at home. It is the weekend of the big art fair/festival in our town and i am totally excited. Friday i took the day off and so did DH so we can head to teh beer tent in the afternoon to see our neighbors band play. A whole lot of friends will be there too. I am so looking forward to it. I nkow Iz will have fun with Grandma and grandpa too since she loves the cabin. 1 more week!!!

We really need to try to get more focused on potty training, i just find it so hard since I work tues/wed/friday to be consistant. And I could do it on the weekend (like i am thinking about trying this weekend) but then we have to stay home all weekend and that is no fun! Urgh, i wish they would just potty train themselves. I am so jealous of my friends/blogger pals that have been so successful in the last couple weeks getting their girls potty trained. I am so overwhelmed

The other thing we need to get rid of in our house is the binky. Izzy still uses a binky when she sleeps and I know she shouldn't, but i haven't wanted to deal with the wrath of izzy for a few days after we take it away. I know i just need to do it and be done with it but so far I have whimped out

I love Trader Joe's! There isn't one super close to me but there is one on my way to pick up iz from my moms. It is a cool store and i love trying their cheap wine but my favorites of late are their marinated Mahi Mahi and Ahi Tuna steaks. They come frozen already marinated. All i do is thaw them and DH grills them , the are SOOOO yummy and not bad for you. I love quick easy meals. I tired an asparagus risoto that i bought from there also and it was really yummy too and you just put itin a pan with a couple tablespoons of water and cook for 6 mins. Yummo!

I need to do more playdates with Iz. Yesterday we had one and then a bonus playtime with the neighbor who came over while we cooked dinner and I just love watchign her play with other kids.Now a lot of hte time she is doing her own thing but other times she engages. Her playdate Brooke said yesterday as i was wheeling kids back to Brookes from the beach "i love my friend Izzy" so sweet!!! If Iz isn't going to have a sibling I need to make playdates a priority!

Well enough rambling, i suppose i should get back to work

Off the wagon with no motivation

I have so Totally fallen of my heathly eating, working out routine! I have not been to the gym in over a month, and have not worked out at all even outside other than walks with Iz into town. I have been eating and drinking WAY too much junk and the worst part is , i can't seem to stop myself.

It is amazing that I have not been packing back on the pounds, i am up 1 or 2 but I think that is about it. But I feel HUGE!!!

I really really really need to get back at it. I feel so much better when I am more active! I have been a little down lately, and I honestly think it is because I am not working out. So what is stopping me? Good question...excuses, excuses excuses!!!!

There is a 5k coming up next Sunday the 9th and I have had two friends ask me to do it with them. They have never done one before, but both are working out regularly. The one runs regularily. I feel obligated to do it with them but know that I will be the last to cross the finish line. URGH I guess I need to just shut up and start moving again!!!

It never ceases to amaze me how fast you lose your working out stamina and how long it takes to get it back.....so unfair.

Well I am going to recommitt to get moving the next week and half to attempt to be ready for this 5k. If it is nice outside when I get home, Izzy and I will be going for a walk/jog....pray i don't die!!!

On a total side note, i am a total nervous wreck about an upcoming dr appt on monday, i am not ready to share yet why i am so nervous but please hope/pray that i am over reacting and there is nothing going on. After a bit of googling I am hopeful that it isn't anything to be too concerned with but i will be happy when the appointment is over on monday!

***Update, i am proud to say I actually went home and went for a walk/jog (mostly walking) with izzy...hey it is a start.