New Design

I decided to change up my blog layout, i was growing tired of the the dots.

Well we hit a milestone (well okay so it isn't the biggest of deals but anyway) we moved DD out of our room!!!! We moved her upstairs to her room. We decided it was time, and so far I think she likes it. She isn't sleeping through the night or anything wonderful like that, but at least I don' t hear every breathe she takes! I need to get some new pics taken of her room and I will post them.

We are still fighting the colic a bit in teh evenings, I am ready for that to fade away anyday now but we probably have another month or so, based on what people tell me.

We went to the Red Wings game last night and left her with DH's sister, and that went pretty well. She didn't scream the whole time. I tell you though she was pretty sad when we left, it did pull at my heart a little, she had such a frown on her face!

I don't know why some people never leave their kids with anyone....DH and I need to get out, it makes us better parents and have more patience I think. We love our peanut but sometimes you just need to get away.

The weather has been nicer the last 2 weeks so we have been going for walks which makes such a difference in my attitude! I am so much happier when I can get outside with her. I also took her out a little this week, took her to see her daddy at work, and to target and to see grandpa at work. She definately sleeps better during the day when she is home, but I will go crazy if I can never get out!

I also worked one day this week and took her to my moms and that worked out pretty good too. I am glad I will have the one day for 4 hours or so to get out in teh adult world without her. Plus it gives her good "nana" time!

All in all, life is good! Sure I am more tired then I have ever been in my life, and sure just when I think I have her figured out, she changes the rules, but that is what mommyhood is all about I guess!

We have our first postplacement visit with our social worker in a couple weeks. She can't wait to meet the peanut! Luckily she is coming in the morning, so that is when DD is the most happy.

Well Daddy and peanut are sleeping on the couch together. Maybe I will go join them!

Here is a picture I took last Monday I think.

Just Amazing

Well I felt the need to make a little post. Since hearing of katd GREAT news it totally made me reflect on what we just went through in the last 2 months and how incredible God is and how life works out! As I read Katd posts, it totally brought me back to how things happened for us.

I can't believe DD is 2 months old already! What a whirlwind, I feel like Feb and March didn't even really exsist, especially February! My life changed in an instant and I couldn't be happier about it. Sure it has been probably the most stressful and most exhausting time in my life, but it has also been the most incredible. I am a parent!!!!! I have a beautiful daughter! WOW! Part of me still can't believe it!

Being a parent is the hardest and best thing I have ever done. The infant stage is very challenging, sleep deprivation is the worst! Plus DD has a little colic in the evenings which wears on you incredibly.......but look at my beautiful daughter! I am so looking forward to her growing and changing and being more interactive.

The weather is finally starting to get nice here, and it makes such a difference to have the sun shinning and to be able to go out for a walk!

Katd I know you will read this at some point and I just want you to know how happy and excited for you I am. You are about to endure the greatest and most challenging adventure of your life! I can't wait to keep reading all about it.

Here is a picture of DD from Saturday getting ready to go for a walk. She had her 2 mo shots on Friday so that made her quite tired and little cranky for a few days but I think we are getting better today.

I survived!

Well I survived DH's business trip where he was gone for 2 nights. DD and I did great!...plus I had a little help during the day from her grandmas. I was so happy to see DH yesterday, taking care of a baby all by yourself, especially when she gets up ever 4 hours at night is tough! But we did it.

DD is getting so big. She is over 11lbs now and finally healthy, she had a cold for a while which was not fun. She goes in next Friday for her 2 month appointment! I can't believe it. She is giving us a few smiles but not a lot yet so hopefully in the next couple of days she will really start smiling.

Well that is it , I just wanted to give a quick post. Happy St Patty's Day everyone! DH's mom is coming this afternoon and we are going out with friends for a bit so I am really excited!

Here is a picture I took last Saturday, it is by far my favorite so far!

Exhausted!

When they say babies don't come with an instruction manual man are they right! Now don't get me wrong I am not complaining and even though I am exhausted I wouldn't have it any other way.

It appears DD has established a fussy time along with maybe a reaction to the milk based formula. I had a great day with her yesterday at home, she ate pretty well, slept great and wasn't cranky...then at about 5:30 it was as though you flipped a switch and she was a different kid. So fussy and spit up everything she ate, would take a few sips and then wail! She has been spitting up more lately so I had called the doc last week and they said if it persisted for a week then switch to soy formula. Well it has been less then a week but I don't want a repeat of last night.........so DH went and bought the soy formula this morning and she had her best bottle since yesterday afternoon. She still spit up a little but not as much adn did not cry in agony during the whole bottle. It says on teh container for the formula it is proven to reduce fussiness and gasiness within 3 days....lets hope it takes a little less then that.

So since DH and I got so little sleep last night, i broke down and called for reinforcements :), my mom is going to come over later this morning and help me out so I can take a nap. I felt so bad for DD last night she seemed so very uncomfortable and we couldnt seem to make her happy. In addition to the formula problems she is also really stuffed up, which she has been for a couple weeks and it will come and go, I am also wondering if that is related to the milk because in one of my books it says a milk reaction could cause stuffiness. We will see how the Soy goes the next few days.

Just when you think you have the little bundles figured out, NOPE. Oh well, this too shall pass and it is all worth it. She is going to be 6 weeks tomorrow already! So depending on who you talk to she could start sleeping through the night or at least longer any time now but what I really can't wait for is her first REAL smile! Hopefully this week or next week we will get to see it! I could really use a toothless, gummy smile today :)

4 weeks already!!

Well, I can't believe it, DD is 4 weeks already!!!! Time sure flies!!! Everything is going really well. I was sick earlier this week with a sinus infection which made things interesting. Luckily DH stayed home Mon and Tues otherwise I don't know what I would have done!

I am getting used to the getting up in the middle of the night i guess. I hope she starts going longer then every 3 hours soon, but I guess she will when she is ready and no sooner.

I heard from teh birthfamily via e-mail the other day which was nice. It was the first I had heard from her since before we left Texas. I really can't explain the feelings I have for this couple....I will forever be grateful to them for giving me something, I could never give myself, the gift of being a mommy! I really wish them all teh best and hope that life gives them some breaks and good things come their way. I want to remain in contact with them which is something that 1 month ago, I never would have thought! THis process of semi-open adoption is truely a gift and a blessing and now that I have been through it I can't imagine it any other way!!

You see I am adopted myself.....only my adoption was completey closed (as were most at that time) All i have is a biece of paper that gives a description of what the birth parents looked like, their interests and a brief medical history. It is interesting because before I went through this experience, I never cared to track them down, but a part of me feels differently now. The only feelings I had about it growing up is I would have liked to see a picture of them. Well now a part of me wants to try to track them down to say thank you!

My DD is so blessed to be able to know exactly where she came from, and know that her parents met and got to know her birthparents, and we can tell her without a hesitation how much they love her and want the best for her. We have so many pictures of all of us together, which I am sure DD will love to look at. It really is an awesome experience and so much better then closed adoption (in my opinion) We have to go back to TX at the 6 month mark for the finalization and I hope that we will all be able to go and we can meet up with the birth family so they can see how well she is doing. I hope that they will always be a part of our lives, (to an extent of course) i have so much love and admiration for them, I will forever be a changed person because of them!!!

Here is a picture i took last week I think, isn'tDD the cutest!!

Happy to be Home!!!

Well we have been home for a few days now and are settling in. It is so nice to be sleeping in our own bed (although dd still prefers her carseat to the pack and play bassinet!) I am definately exhausted, but it is so worth it! I have yet to figure out this sleep when she sleeps thing, even though I am exhausted, I have so much stuff to do, I don't want to waste time sleeping. And it seems like when i do lay down I cant fall asleep anyway and just think about all the stuff I need to do.

Since everything happened so fast, we still don't have her nursery set up or anything, we have the walls done but then we started redoing the spare room so all that furniture is now in the baby's room, and we don't have a crib or changing table or dresser or anything, so it has been a bit cluttered trying to get organized. Hopefully dh will make some progress on the spare room this weekend so we can get it put back together and start getting dd room organized! So for now we have the pack in play in our room and dh bought a 3 drawer plastic container that we have in our room with some of her clothes and blankets etc. We definatley have more stuff in this house and we haven't even had our shower yet! So far we have a bouncy seat and a swing. I can't even imagine what this house is gonna look like after the shower.

Instead of a traditional shower we are just having an open house. I am not a big fan of showers so I think the open house will be good. It is next sat the 17th so we have bit to get ready for that, hopefully that spare room will at least be primed so we can get the furniture back in it.

It is starting to sink in that I am a mommy and that is my full time job! I am still going to try to work in my dad's office a few hours a week, but for the most part will be at home and am SOOOOOO excited. I can't imagine it any other way.

We took dd to the peditrician here today and that went great. The doctor was really nice and dd is up to 8lbs!!! she put on a 1lb in a week!!!! The doctor said she looks great and couldn't find anything wrong with her!!!!!!!!! We are just so blessed. I swear the last 2 weeks have been an absolute dream come true.

For those still waiting, DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!! Your child WILL find you and as soon as you see him/her you will know they are meant to be yours!!!!! And we are proof that it can happen ANYTIME!!!

We are Coming Home!!!!

Well we got clearance this morning so we are on the last flight out tonight!!! We are beyond excited, cold weather here we come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!